Fake it till you make it

I can't do it.  I can't post any more Disney happiness right now.  I don't have it in me.  I just can't fake it till I make it. 

Looked at Cody's face last night while we were watching "So You Think You Can Dance" and all I could see were the kids' faces.  Not only do we have a month long separation in our near future that my kids are not going to handle well, but a sooner then expected at LEAST 12 month separation to hell.  Did you read that, at LEAST a year.  Missing not one, but two Xmases.  The kiddos get so upset when daddy leaves to go to work, the twins and all.  They just start crawling towards daddy grabbing at his legs crying.  Can you imagine that day when he has to say bye to them for 12+ months?!  I just imagine buckets of tears, heartaches, and screams for daddy.  Those images that haven't even happened are flooding my brain. 

So the previously happy posts about one of the greatest places in the U.S., are on hiatus, as is my happiness. 

Every little smile, hug, kiss, laugh, touch, everything with Cody is going to be cherished and memorized even more then before.